These last couple of weeks have been crazy at work, home and my personal life, alot of stuff piled on my plate, most of it is work related. I don’t like to go into detail of work so trust me it was alot. I was stressed, big time stressed, the most stressed I have been in a long time, if ever. I went to work and I will call this a meeting, an important meeting with all my other peers and some higher ups, well things happend and my peers, my support group, is now beeing sent home. So, it was just me at this meeting and some big wigs. I was at my breaking point.
I was the only one had to be out of my work on different work occasions at least one or two days the previous 3 weeks and now they want to have the meeting with me. I went outside and was mad, mad at God, why is he doing this to me? I feel like I am swimming in quicksand in the last month or so and now everyone is being sent home and I have to go through with this? ALONE?!?!
Well, the meeting is about to take place, the last couple of meetings were rough, they tested you mentally and physically. I came out of the last meetings tired, beat up, feeling overwelmed and my brain felt like oatmeal and these were my peers with me, I think I will carted out in a straight jacket after this one.
The meeting started.
A question was asked BAM! I answered it.
A concern was brought up, I solved it.
I shown them what we were doing and they praised us for it.
Another block in the road, came about was quickly removed.
I felt the weight on my shoulders being lifted, they began to wrap it up and I gave them some more.
The more I was in the meeting the stronger I became. I was out of the quicksand and standing on a Rock.
I didn’t imagene them in underwear or any other of those business tricks, I was walking with my Savior and he was kicking some tail.
Why, I’m forced at times to question God’s promises? It is all down in the Bible, Black and white. I don’t think it’s because of my lack of faith, it’s more a lack of my understanding of why all of the craziness is happening in my life a particular time. Over the past 4 weeks there has been more happen in my professional life than I’ve felt that I could handle. I’ll admit that I’ve been angry, bitter, depressed and confused as to why everything has happened. God was with me and was ALWAYS with me. Who ever written that footprints poem nailed it.
I went and look in the bible and there is was! Corinthians 10:13
“No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.”
Now, I was humbled. God has more faith in me than I of him? How selfish of me, it wasn’t the lack of trust in him, it was the lack of trust in what he has given me to work with in my life.
I don’t know why I didn’t lay my burdens down, I am not a prideful person. I guess I wasn’t thinking that my professional life isn’t spiritual, but it is. I separate my personal life and my profesional life, next time I will give these little things to God. He’ll know what to do and I’ll fell better too.